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Tonight I am supposed to be writing and programming and am doing neither (unless you count blogging). I have reached total doneness with the current project, especially after realizing that I’ve been at it without a break since early July.

My capacity for hiding from the real world in projects never ceases to both amaze and appal me. This does not mean that I will not finish the project, but it does mean that I am going to claw back some balance for myself. Sheesh! How can I not have a life?

The week started with a bang with a pizza-and-movie party last Sunday. Kerry, Ed and Tina all attended and we had vast quantities of pizza and gourmet chocolate. It was great fun and we think it’s going to become a regular fixture. It’s also sweet to be among people who will actually taste the chocolate and discuss it with you like a fine wine. :)

But wow…what a week. Let’s not mention the ridiculous heat and the ridiculous length of days spent in front of the computer. I think the heat’s just about to break and not a moment too soon. My stress levels have been skyrocketing and I am amazed at that, at how stressed I can make myself when I live two thousand feet up a mountain with views of mountains and rivers and fields and critters. I mean, what is wrong with this picture?

Don and I rode out to Weaverville a few nights ago–the night of the full moon I think–and I got a notebook to start my Morning Pages again. For those unfamiliar with the concept, it’s a tool from the book The Artist’s Way which has you writing three pages longhand each morning before you engage with the world (i.e. start talking to people, reading email, thinking).

You basically download all the crap in your mind, the worries, the concerns, whatever is on your mind to those pages and nobody gets to read them and you don’t get to edit them. It is amazing how much calmer that leaves you and how much more able to face the day.

We also found LED umbrella lights for half price. This is a string of lights configured so that they radiate out from a central point and can be attached to an outdoor umbrella. We are not planning to decorate any umbrellas, but the key point here is that they draw only 30% of the power a single lightbulb in our RV does, are intensely bright and will greatly enhance our ability to not stand on our cats in the dark overextend the house battery when we overnight somewhere without electricity.

So anyway, after coming within a hair’s breadth of full-on panic this week I am now slowly easing towards an even keel. I have a two-pronged reason for my stress; one is procrastination over something important that needs to be done and another is a self-imposed deadline which I may have to just let go. Raging PMS has not helped.

All this stuff for Markeroni is way cool but I’m getting burnt out and annoyed with the fiddliness of it. My mind makes everything larger than it is. One reason I’m building a labyr

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